Good Grief! Today, I got pulled over by the cops. I was trying to avoid the parking lot on 285 on my commute to work and ran a stop sign. A couple of policemen on motorcycles pulled me over. I was sure I was getting a ticket, a huge fine, and attitude. I say that because when the police officer came up to the van, he seemed rude and cut off every sentence I tried to say. He mentioned my cell phone was on so I was obviously surfing on my phone as I was driving. He took my lisence and spent around 15 minutes running the tag. During that 15 minutes, I was pissed. A ticket? Really? After everything else put on us this month, now I was going to have to pay a fine? What else?!! I was just trying to get to work so I could make sure everything was as done as possible for when I take an indefinant leave of absence. A fine? More money out of our pockets? Really? Wasn't it enough we were going to be financing basically 2 households during the coming months since our family would be split into two parts? I think I was more angry I had no time to explain I didn't know this area or see the sign. (Not an excuse, but still!) He wouldn't let me explain my cell phone was only on because I was using google maps to get to work. I had the voice command going into the speakers on my van so I wasn't even looking at me cell. Really?!!!!!
Surprisingly, I received a warning. Later, when I was complaining to my Aaron that I couldn't seem to catch a break, he stared at me and informed me a warning was a break. God bless my infuriatingly rational husband.
Sigh.
Ty's surgery has been scheduled for Monday morning at 9:45 am at Scottish Rite. Last time, we created a medical page through the hospital to give updates to family and friends. We aren't doing that this time. I will be updating our family blog. There is a way for family and friends to sign up to get updates on this site. That said, I will be taking a break from Facebook.
Frankly, I am bitchy. I'm sorry. That is the word that best describes me at the moment. (Ask Aaron. He better not agree.) My emotions are all over the place right now. I go from laughing to crying to being angry within a matter of moments. Tonight, we ate tacos and I thought, "What if this is the last time Tyler eats tacos?!!" I am taking these feelings out on Aaron. He is being so strong, but why should he have to deal with everything PLUS a crazy wife? :)
I feel isolated. I read facebook and feel even more isolated. When I see friends post about how they ran out of ketchup, I think, "Really? It must be so hard to be out of KETCHUP right now!!" So I am out, people! I love you and I promise to be a much better friend after this ordeal is over. I am raw and I am broken.
Right now is rough. I am so thankful for family and friends. While I have felt isolated, angry, and lost lately, I have also felt love. So many of you have sent us good wishes and encouraging messages. I have received support and offers of help. I love you all.
Hang in there Karyn, we are praying that all goes well.
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